It has been a semester
since I started college teaching in my alma mater. And I actually find it funny
that my teaching jobs are all in the schools where I graduated from. This
moonlighting stint of mine started when I posted a labor day rant about my
“insufficient income” and how I desired to have another job (because 75 percent
of my income is all eaten up by a loan, hay…family problems).
Apparently and
perhaps I would say fortunately, the dean, who was my former teacher, saw my
post and suggested me that I would apply as a part-time instructor in the
university. I was happy then because it was answered prayer in my part. Of
course, I have gone through all the SOPs of applying and I was glad that I was
given two courses to teach.
I was quite inspired
teaching college students because I thought that I could share a lot to them.
In fact, I wrote this blog for college students and soon-to-be teachers in the
hopes of inspiring them and at the same time help them top the LET. And also
perhaps the main reason why I was hired is to “inspire” education students in
my college who I once was. This time however, I would be sharing my thoughts
not only online but to real students face-to-face.
On the first weeks of
my teaching, all things went well perhaps because this was just a
getting-to-know stage. I think that my students are all smart and enthusiastic.
As time goes by, I gradually find teaching college students challenging. And I
couldn’t help comparing students in elementary (where I primarily teach) and in
college.
As a teacher, we have
that idea of “with-it-ness”, or the skill of knowing what is going on inside
the classroom. And because of these, I usually can see or feel every little
nuances that my students exhibit. In elementary, if ever I see a student not
listening, I could just raise my voice and tell them to listen, in which
students most of time immediately respond. However, what I have noticed with
college students is that they have the tendency to talk back behind their
heads. If you call on a name of an inattentive student, some may respond, while
some would smirk or grimace. And to not
lose your composure, you just have to do what Elsa did…let it go.
Second, in teaching
elementary, you are not afraid of making yourself funny because it is wonderful
to have a teacher with a jolly personality. It brightens up the classroom and
makes young students more motivated and interested in class. However, being a
jolly teacher in college seems to be tantamount to being lax. And it seems that
strict teachers gain more respect while teachers who smile a lot are just taken
for granted. The worst, some students would judge you differently and unrespectable.
Once I have shared something hilarious just to make them smile and to my
surprise I accidentally saw one student in my peripheral vision roll her finger
in the ear implying that I was crazy. I
was quite offended about this gesture. I was sincere and trustful sharing these
things to them and to be implied crazy because of these seems to mean that I am
just taken as a joke. If I am afraid to be taken as a joke, I should have not
shared these things to them. But as a teacher, I tend to share a lot of my
experiences with my students, both to break the ice and to make them learn from
my experiences. In elementary, doing this breaks the barrier between the
students and the teacher, because as a class, they both together share
humanity’s universal gesture of joy, that is laughing. In college however, some
may share your laugh while some will find you a crack.
I got the chance to
talk with my former college teachers and it was nice to have a conversation
with them as colleagues and not as my teachers. One of the things we talked
about is sincerity among students. In elementary, when students like you, they
really mean it, no pretentions, no deceit. When they don’t like you or say
something bad about you, it is out of honesty and natural tactlessness of
children, but they don’t mean to offend you. In college, some students may
smile and be good in front of you, even flatter you, but would talk something
or conspire behind your back. Elementary
students may be naughty, run around the room, disobey some of the classroom
rules, but they would rarely talk behind your back And if ever they do, one of
them would blow the whistle to the teacher. And I know why elementary students
wouldn’t do such thing as much as older college students. And this is because
talking behind teacher’s back is a form of betrayal, that they would never talk
and backstab a person who teaches them and who encourages them to be the best of what they
can, and whom they are indebted with the gift of knowledge.
One of my former
college teachers shared to me that she sometimes questions herself if she still
finds joy in teaching, and it’s as if that she is just teaching to live and not
the other way around. And I understand her. She was an elementary teacher
before she became a college teacher. I empathize with her now more than
before. And based on my experiences so
far, I grew a lot of respect to her and to the rest of my college teachers. How
can they survive teaching students whom subject them to judgments and opinions?
And it’s not paranoia, it is just that as an elementary teacher, we experience
sincerity and raw honesty almost everyday with children, and we have grown to
distinguish between these from flattery and deceit (or in colloquial term, being
plastic).
Am I discouraged? Most
of the time to be quite honest, but as I have said, teaching college students is
challenging but I didn’t say gruesome. Yes,
I have said some students may show not-so-good treatment with their teachers
but NEVER did I say ALL of them. Some of them have genuinely shown respect and
appreciation but there are just whom I cannot pleased. And I am not liable if I
am not good enough for them and it is not my responsibility to please them. I
always share that part of the teaching profession being noble is the idea that
not all students will appreciate you, some may talk behind your back and will
forget you. But the idea of teaching them, helping them achieve who would they
become (whether they value and appreciate it or not) is already rewarding for
me. If out of thirty or more students there is but a single student whom I have
inspired, I am already happy and fulfilled.
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